drown the red;

i need to let this out, i feel like a volacano on the edge of eruption.
cliche isn't it, but there's no better words to describe it.
you would probably told people what an insecure freak i am,

how narrow minded i am.
how i always want your attention.
how i always get mad of those small things that you do.
do you know why i am mad at those littlelest things that you think is insignificant?
guess, guess, guess.
oh, maybe cos i was hurt?
oh no, probably not, maybe i'm just being too dramatic cos i got nothing better to do in my life.
i just like to pick a fight, just beacause i like it.


i have been giving in alot of times
yes, u gave in when u said sorry.
i gave in by letting it all pass hoping that you would somehow know how i feel and understand.
you knew that i would feel that way, but you still did it.
its all minor stuffs yes,
pictures, actions, conversations.
i am not asking for much,
i just want you to appreaciate me cos sometimes love is not enough.
to know things without me telling.

i feel tired.
i really am.
im tired of feeling this way.

i'll never understand the bond and the reasons that you gave.
cos i'll never do that to you.
no matter what the situation is.
sometimes, i have this thinking that your stuck with me,
but you still wanna have fun.
your sense of fun is really annonying and hurtful.

i try to get it, but i don't get it.
now, i dont think i would even wanna try to get it.
you will come up with those platonic reasons.
friendship is a bond that you cherish,
what a way to cherish it.

i don't feel appreaciated by you.
every girl deserves to be appreciated and treated well,
i deserve that too.

i dunnoe what i want anymore.
i just need to get away and be alone.
cos i am hurt.
and i can only depend on myself.
i cant depend on you anymore.

you just don't understand.